Movie Time...

At 1 this morning I finally sat down and made myself watch 500 Days of Summer... Aside from my love of JGL and his work and  my distaste for Zooey Deschanel I wanted to see an Indie love story... First things first Tom Hansen, played by Joseph Gordon-Levitt, scares me... Not because he's frightening but more the fact that I feel the way he does in the first few days... Empty, like I'll be unhappy forever until I find "The One"... However I have not had the even momentary pleasure of finding my Summer...
Summer, played by Zooey Deschanel reminds me of my self also, the self imposed rules only serving to detach onesself from others to quell any disappointment that may come my way... I always say I'd be fine in a situation with no label, the truth is I'd be going insane on the inside and most likely pull a disappearing act unless something happened... At then end I was immensely sad... Even though Tom got back to what he loved and ended up meeting Autumn, I was saddened because of all the time wasted trying to fill a round void with a square peg so to speak... Often people try to force things for fear of never having the chance again to be a part of something greater than themselves...

In the end it was a great movie...
Inspiring even, came up with a new line somewhere in the middle of Matthew Gray Gubler talking about his love...
Sit down and watch it =]

Train Manners...

Hopped on a crowded 2 train this afternoon like I do everyday when I leave work, nestled myself against the door and at 34th street the train gets fuller and some silly boy in a Gucci bookbag gets on and stands next to me... He has to turn towards me and reach in front of my face to grab the pole... I'm already agitated cuz my afro is making me hot and my feet hurt and this aggin keeps bumping my hip with his junk... I chalk it up to the train being crowded and not having any space to move... The car starts to empty and this guy is now rubbing his piece up against my thigh like I don't know whats going on... He gave up around 110th street cuz I payed his old crazy ass no mind as he was trying his hardest to make me acknowledge him smh...The funny shit is I would have spoken to him had he said a word to me instead of humping my thigh on the damn train, he was kinda cute but clearly dizzy as hell... Silly boys, USE YOUR WORDS lmao

Oh and I saw 3 hot Asian guys on and around the train today and one in the supermarket by the crib...
NY FTW

New Friend Request...

Watching Degrassi before my nightly Avatar binge and this looker walks across the screen... Freakin ey, like I said guys like this do not exists outside of the make believe worlds of TV and the internet... Mr. Nathan Stephenson, to quote one of my favorite bands "If I had 2 horses and I beat 'em with authority, I'd gallop all the way to Canada to see your face"- Gym Class Heroes "New Friend Request"

Blah, Blah, Blah...

Wondering why my high school memories are nothing like my fave teen romantic comedy, 10 Things I Hate About You... I was the less outwardly awful and outspoken version of Cat... My social awkwardness was the HS equivalent of a Scarlet Letter actually... But unlike Ms. Stiles my austrailian accented bad boy with a heart of gold and a face worth just as much never came forth... I know my melancholy, self loathing ass posts are depressing, but I'm sick of not having a kindred spirit of the male persuasion to wax philosophical about nothing with... And the guys that are attracted to me just aren't attractive to me... I wore a low cut top for the first time this entire vacation and it warranted so much attention from the same nobodies I pass on my daily excursions to the supermarket it's insane... I actually got FOLLOWED in the freakin supermarket by a guy who could not take a fucking hint and insisted on giving me his number even though I told him I was NOT going to call...
Call me a snob but cute quirky intellectuals, A.K.A HOT NERDS are my persuasion of the moment idk why I can't seem to find any... I was told by a hot nerd from Jersey (Hey Omar lol) to look in basements, comic book stores and game stores for others but I be damed if they don't seem to exist in the Bronx or Hampton for that matter... If they are here they are hiding like shit... Cute train boys are a tease too, at the most you get to stare inquisitively until his or your stop arrives, then he's gone, most often forever... The internet is no better, all of these perfection personified guys I see just do not exists outside of the cyberworld... And I'll believe this until I see otherwise... I missed Yungs show at the Nuyo on friday so he's still a myth as well... And I work like down the block from there, I'm such a failure, but thats beside the point lol... I think I'm done on the woe is me front for now

JGL for the win...

Joseph Gordon Levitt

Maui Wowi...

Scott Mescudi is taking over the world haha

Bittersweet

Today would have been my Angel's 100th birthday... I miss you Momma T

Bad Habits...

I seem to make a practice out of distancing myself from guys I like too much... Especially if I don't think the feelings are mutual... However I never ask their feelings, just assume it's not that way and disappear... I'm notorious for deleting them from my social networking friends lists... Sort of like out of sight out of mind but on quiet days when my mind has a little extra time to wander I always wonder, what if I wasn't such a chicken shit lol
 I can dole out quality advice on feelings all day but I never take it... Like I'm afraid of becoming too attached and having my heart tied to a bullet train to hell, because I misjudged a situation... I'm way too cautious *Kanye Shrug*

Douche It...

I was waiting for this foolishness... It gave me some laughs during an otherwise uneventful week... Work tomorrow