La Biblioteca...

Community actors and fans are AMAZING

NSFW...

I was being totally emo this morning lol... I just want to lick warm honey off of the neck of a hot guy, is that too much to ask for?... Then he can do this

My Heart's Been Broke For A While

I really want to cry right now... Stressed beyond reason about school, current and future, an emotional wreck and I feel like I'm going to implode if I can't release some of this pressure... I need to be able to turn my feelings off but someone came along and killed my emotionless-ness... I had almost gone a year and a half without concern for anyone's thoughts of me... Sir, either your an asshole outright or your playing some sort of game and you're secretly an asshole... I don't like not knowing if it's just me over thinking or some sick joke... WTF did I do to you? Sorry but it's driving me up the freaking wall... And school is becoming a major problem, I still get all of my work done but I'm just over the whole idea of it right now, and having the uncertainty of my future weighing on me is crippling... Why can't I get into a Doctoral program, find someone who actually likes me! and go on with my well adjusted life?
I seriously need to cry, like all out bawl uncontrollably, for a night... I can feel it building but I'm scared of what that crescendo is going to be like if it doesn't happen soon... I've been sequestered in my room with Chinese food, Nostalgia/Ultra and 21 since Friday... I've felt a tear or two every so often, earlier when American Wedding was playing I thought I was going to lose it but nothing happened... I'm getting rather concerned, I cry every few months as an emotional release because there is no one I can tell all of the shit that goes on in here... Now my emotional fatigue is manifesting as headaches and insomnia, I need a therapist and about 12 hours of sleep
If I drank, I'd be absolutely wrecked, tears mixed with whiskey

=/

I was bored...

CTFU...

Done

Bored...

So bored... My mother is talking me into a coma about Grad School... I quit stressing about that shit after I sent in my last app... And I'm muy lonely... I swear the more I think I have guys figured out the weirder they seem to get... 4 Years of undergrad and no more than some chill time every so often with guys I didn't really like but awesome-o comes along and just falls off the face of the earth... Just gonna ride the semester out, veg on summer break and bury myself in my studies, come the fall, like I have been doing this entire time... Still kinda sad tho =]

Had this song stuck in my head all freaking day

I'm...

"Just lookin' for some in-and-out, animal style" - Childish Gambino

Pet Peeve...

I DO NOT like being ignored... One of the quicker ways to find yourself on my shit list

A-Dork-able...

This key chain is also a splitter for your headphone jack...

 Cop over @ Thinkgeek

Quick Bit...

Adele's Keyboardist #CanGetIt...


Every time I try to listen to something else I end up with my eyes welling, listening to Ms. Adkins

Continuation...

So happy for him, this young man is getting much deserved shine =]... This piece is amazing and the fashions are very nice

Get It Out...

Sitting at home in my bed on spring break listening to my recently unearthed Aaliyah CD... Sounds like a good time right? Not so much... As I sit here, 40-some odd miles away is where I'd rather be, at least for a few hours... See about a month ago I started communicating with this guy, super hot and strange as hell, good strange though... Like a violin playing, anime reading, football playing, fitness machine kind of weirdness... Brilliant, I know lol, that's why I like hanging with him... I don't know what it is but I feel like this kid wrote the book on bagging me, never have I been so comfy at a new friends place, he knows how to toe the line between being forward and honest, and it's the cutest thing when he bumps my leg when he walks past to sit down or falls asleep when I play in his hair or stroke his back...
Why am I spilling my guts to faceless internet people about this shit, truthfully I have not a fucking clue but I need to get this out of my head... I think I like him but as always, my timing sucks asses, we graduate in about 2 months and hopefully Grad School in the fall, it's like all of this awesome fell into my lap, literally and I only have a limited amount of time to enjoy it... Welp after break hopefully we can veg out and watch movies and talk about random stuff with total understanding... He really makes me want to hit the gym too, which is a good thing, just have to overcome my crushing disdain for sweating it out in public, oh well
Later =]

P.S
I am presently im'ing with my favorite young wordsmith... What good deed is this repayment for?  lol

Look Ma, No Hands...

Seriously son, these broads make me want to take a class 'cuz really? I NEED to know how to do this shit for no other reason than to say that I can in conversation... This is a workout I can get with lol... Their bodies are sick, no homo